For My Children

Tonight I heard this song (lyrics below and the song is at the top of my playlist) while I was driving Spencer to Mutual. This is a great song...I have heard it a hundred times probably. I've always loved it, but for some reason it really caught my attention tonight. It made me think of my kids and how much I wish for their lives. We all want our kids to be happy, successful people, with rich and full lives. But I cannot, and maybe you can't either, begin to describe the deepest feelings I have for my children. The love I feel for them goes so deep inside to a place no one can touch. It goes beyond the worrying for them, and even beyond the joy I feel just watching them sometimes. It's just something I can't describe. I know they are loaned to us from a Heavenly Father who loves them much more than I can imagine...but that's just it...I can't comprehend that. It seems impossible to me that anyone can love them more than me, or their Dad. Sometimes I am so amazed that these beautiful spirits are a part of me. We have normal lives like anyone else. We have our good days and our not so good days. Our children give us grief sometimes. But in those quiet moments where it's just me, myself and my thoughts, I often think of them and just want to shed some tears! They do something to my soul that tells me there HAS to be something more than just us. I know there is...and it is just more proof to me. Some nights I can't make the tears stop flowing, while I'm telling Heavenly Father how very thankful I am that they are a part of my life. I feel so blessed to have them that sometimes I think my heart could just burst! Sometimes I get little flickers of how eternity must feel. Like when one of them says, "I love you mama", at just the right moment. Or when one of them just looks at me with a certain expression, and I feel like I've died and gone to Heaven. I honestly can barely remember life without them. Or at least I can't remember life being so full. Each one of them in their own way has parts of me and parts of Isaac in them...in the way they walk, the way they laugh, the way they view the world around them, their quirks and mannerism's, their personalities...so many different aspects I can pick out from either one of us. And yet, they are their own person. They are little people who trust us completely to lead and guide them. They look to us for acceptance, love, security, a warm smile, a hug and a kiss. So this song, to me, says just the very least of what I wish for them, but it says enough that it will be burned in my heart for years to come. I could not even sing along to it tonight because it made me so choked up. So, to my children, I dedicate this song...

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"My Wish"

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,

And each road leads you where you want to go,

And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,

I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.

And if one door opens to another door closed,

I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,

If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,

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My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,

Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,

You never need to carry more than you can hold,

And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,

I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,

Yeah, this, is my wish.

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I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,

All the ones who love you, in the place you left,

I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,

And you help somebody every chance you get,

Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,

And you always give more than you take.

But more than anything, yeah, more than anything,

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My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,

Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,

You never need to carry more than you can hold,

And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,

I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,

Yeah, this, is my wish.

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My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,

Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,

You never need to carry more than you can hold,

And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,

I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,

Yeah, this, is my wish.

This is my wish

I hope you know somebody loves you